My soul cried out to God in anguish. I had never felt this way before. My investment in this girl had gone beyond God's boundaries, and now I was reaping what I had sown. She closed the door to me and said no more. God was ripping an idol out of my life and it hurt; no, it was agonizing. I cried and yelled until around four in the morning. Then I went home; I couldn't sleep. I went to the coffee shop early in the morning. As I was walking back to my car the pain filled my eyes with tears and I sat down in front of my car. I was exhausted; the tears felt good. I dialed my mom and recounted for her the night of pain. God was there. Then, O what love, my parents got in the car and drove to spend the day with me. The beginning of healing. Days down the road, I called my mom very early in the morning and she gladly got out of bed and listened to my lamenting. O what a love. Through all of the pain God finally opened my eyes to something. I saw the amazing and sacrificial love of my parents, finally realizing that God loves me (and all of His saints) infinitely more than my parents (or their parents) ever will. My parents are bound by their human nature. Their love only goes so far. God's love has no bounds. O what a love! He shows me infinite mercy, infinite love, infinite compassion and understanding. He offers infinite help, infinite truth, and He never leaves...
"And because you are sons, God has sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, crying, 'Abba! Father!' So you are no longer a slave, but a son, and if a son, then an heir through God."
- Galatians 4:6-7
"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?...neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
- Romans 8:35, 39
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We don't know why God opens some doors and closes others. But the amazing thing about Him is that He stands with us as we approach each doorway. Sometimes He gently whispers for us to walk through with Him, and sometimes He gently tugs at our arms asking us to hold back and stay with Him. Praying that as your eyes are opened to His amazing love for you that you are also filled with the peace and joy that He longs for you.
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